Departure

Bled out on the bathroom floor
Left my luggage at the door
Didn't even notice letters
Piling up at the frontdoor

With you saying all your sorrow
And the lies between your lips
Frightened eyes they fear tomorrow
When my soul departs on ships

A last glance upon the windows
At the clouds to which my mind flows
Close my eyes and drift away
I leave you with the willows

Don't you dare to weep for me

Probleem Spreker

Maak je maar geen zorgen
ik red me wel zeg ik
twijfel in mijn ogen
voor woorden die ik slik
ik wil je graag iets zeggen
maar reactie wil ik niet
durf het niet te horen
maar het kwaad is al geschied

de woorden door mijn oren
uit de klanken van mijn ziel
mijn mond vertaalt de lasten
draait ze uit als kassabonnen
maar het bonnetje wil je niet

maak je maar geen zorgen
ik ben rekbaar als elastiek
twijfel in mijn woorden
maar angstig voor repliek
ik ga je nu iets zeggen
vergeef me alsjeblieft
ik voel me erg eenzaam
alleen en ongeliefd

Sleep's Song

I drown in sleeping eyes
and long for waking worlds
in dream like states

A bed made without comfort

I sit and wait
my thoughts instilling fears
of which I cannot think

I sink into sweet discomfort

Nervously feigning smiles
my longing eyes concealed in sleep
moments disconnecting ever so slow

I wake, eyes closed, into the discord

A marriage of the extremities
interpreted as final
may I finally collapse

Buried in the soil of truth

Words For E

Hold on to your hearts

this wound is deep

the story's ending

with a promise to keep

clashing and falling

burning I weep

'till winter's whisper

Lulls me to sleep

I said goodbye then

and let you be

now I regret that

you're not with me

too late I found out

I did not see

you'd lift my head up

when I was weak

and held my hand high

told me to speak

and whispered softly

my ears to hear

the words you told me:

'feel safe with me

I'll love you always'

it would not be

Yesterday Long Gone

break the ties of love you left
breathe in the air so soft
keep up this living and last
longer than the lie you loved

yesterday is a worry long gone
today is the day you'll win
and all that was lost and wrong
will drop like sweat from your skin

the light in your eyes will shine
bright golden rays of intensity
until all your dark days resign
and fortune will be your propensity

Autumn Afternoons

Lowly love songs
on bitter afternoons

a serenade
lost in the wind

trains departing
to roads open

mind lost
insanity found

a lonely day in autumn
it is crowded in my head

Stone Birds

Birds, flightless wings
pointing
finally
cast in stone
and they came
with everything,
stalled our hearts
and took our flames
Broke the hold
of their breathless hope
lost in love
lost in life
Arms strained
hearts in pain
hope is gone
life is lost
flight is found

Goodbyes Go Alone

...and then go home
nobody to count on
when you're all alone
steady and it's gone

the love is
where the life lives
the longing lust
turned to dust

flailing deep down
screaming all around
breaking solid ground
to start another round

see my goodbye
in the fiery eyed
blooming midnight sky

Dreamer Awake

Sleep is the vessel which
Dreams the endless ocean
in which I drift
no direction
just a traveler
seeking out the horizon
hoping it will never come

the waking world is not for me
yet I long for it to be
when the vessel that I take
shows me the beauty
of worlds undiscovered
and passions unawakened
this real time is haunting me

Let me sleep please
and touch this illusion
for eternity and beyond
where skies are not the limit
and the earth is malleable
so I can drift peacefully
in the world created just by me

In here I am always sleeping awake

Drones

float....away
your lungs breathe none
the air it wrongs
your head it longs
for sleep, don't come
yet, need to find it
first, to keep my mind
up level....I float
away

adrift....alone
away from home
my head it drones
for my feet who'll roam
these streets of stone
it breaks my bones
in fragile tones
no home....I drift
alone

cloudless....hope
an endless slope
with leading rope
my hands to hold
I find ways to cope
when all is cold
My eyes behold
life.....it unfolds
hope