Reckoner

This is where it all ends
the insufferable truth of insanity
the living with the dead
and all collide into inferno
when the sky bleeds red
my soul will devour
swallowing sin and destruction
I will leave nothing whole
and create only empty
hallowed saints will fall under
as I tear out ribs and lungs
and make my way to human core
where pulsating heartbeats pump
and dormant life lies silently still

Undefined Love

There's been a love that wasted mine

through ages it went defying time

And all the way it went defining me

my life, what I'd done and what I'd seen

a dream of memories passing through me

a tunnel of mirrors reflected my image

foretelling my future and erasing my past

no shadows be found only light up ahead

no darkness that's gathered round my head

no heavy cloud that storms above me

only the bliss of moving forward

taken by the hand of an undefined love

A Short Story Told

It took a picture to hold you to this

a promise kept but it all went to shit

the second best is the first to begin

the last one left in this nightmare machine

You told the world of how you would live

your life a treasure in a buried coffin

Six feet below a story unfolding

of how you tried to be anything else

a breath away from the life you expelled

she stood there crying as you were put in the ground

You told the world of how you would live

you told the lie you came to believe

Above the grass you left a legacy

did you forget you had a family?

the caring souls you hurt so painfully

as you trade this world for eternity

I'd tell the world of how you'd lived

but stories short are hard to tell

and the hurt paralyses my mouth

I miss you so and hate you for it

But I will tell your story

Until it burns my bones

Still Life

On the side

can you feel

can you hide

this night

this time

is it gonna be alright

hold it down

hold it down

see the world

wear the crown

to be inspired

to be the king of this town

do we stop in time

and hold down the line

or do we let it stray

until we fade with the day

it's the sound

coming out

from the ground

this time

this night

it is not gonna be alright

shake it off

shake it off

let the dust fall

sever us all

from the ties

sever us from this still life

Lichaamswarmte

Ik mis een lichaam

warmte en beweging

ik mis een hart

kloppend met dat van mij

ik mis niemand

slechts een lichaam

zonder eenzaamheid

Death; Destroyer of Hearts

Lose your faith
along the way
with hearts you take
for games to play

In favour of
the heartless love
you seek to kill
all that's real

In the closest moments
you aim to hurt
when hearts open
you close them for good

You are death
destroyer of hearts
you are like me
a lover of dark

Together we dwindle
we roam and we take
forever we play
for our love is at stake

Blue Eyes End

Hints of passion hide among your eyes
blue as ice they seem to sing
of better days in former years
when not everything was as it seemed
and beneath every layer you'd find the world
in all its marvel and all its mystery
but you would discover life as it went
turned out to be something else
as the mysteries became memories
and the layered cake of which you ate
turned out to be a children's tale
so when your icey eyes perceived
a world so rotten from underneath
you took the only way you knew to go
and threw yourself from off the world

Play of Life

Inevitably lost when I was found
I had a mind but it got lost
into the sound into the ground
I had found what I had found
A severed life, a single file
organised by what was mine
folded into what is time
speeding past me, I'm not there
too busy with my forever stare
into the unknown black abyss
the greater part of what I'd missed
the feeling of feeling it all
and knowing we'll all eventually fall
into the dark and in the mist
forever black and forever this
this haunting of my withered face
a lifelike mirror of life's embrace
holding me until the day
that I learn how to let it stray
out of my mind into decay
as death will solve me into clay
a piece in life's enduring play

The Sin of Skin

Follow rivers to the source
and find the answer to your question
find it in the purest water
for every drop will leave its mark

As rain, acidic, vile and harsh
will crash and beat your eyes apart
no sight is seen throughout the haze
and drops of venom set fire on your skin

This rain it kills with every drop
a pounding endless as the sky
it cares only for the barren soil
and tears apart your worried soul

Into the ground you'll eventually collapse
bearing fruits of life for ground to have
as green shoots out from within
hungry for the sun and the sin of skin

Your love for love has run you down
now you lay silently in the ground
flowers bloom and above your eyes
you'll see the fieriest of skies

Hurt Machine

It is silent in my heart
pushing slowly through my veins
all the loneliness I feel
coursing through my body
turning cycles of my life
into steady streams of pain.

And so every breath I take
keeps on fueling this machine
driving out the hope in me
like some poet's tragedy
I always seem to find myself
on the lowest of all shelves

I am tired of this storm
crashing down upon me
and slowly feeding off the hurt
that's infesting my body
with fork and with knife
taking bits of my life

Winter Child

This is the last one
the life embraced
the forgotten angels
and their sighs of relieve
the lonesome spirit
and the season's eye
all feel the tension
when ties are severed
and the light is bright
the howling wolves
and silent owls
come forth to witness
the child found
along the river
left to the winter
and the coldest ice
the heart now frozen
its eyes tell a tale
of slow demise

Angel Wings

Set out to fly on wings you made
with feathers fragile as the look
your eyes convey when I come near.
Set out to fly and find me there
among the winds I drift from fear,
into the blue sky, so way up high.

Set out to fly on wings you made,
turn your back on grasses green
and make for the sky with haste to see.
Among the highest trees and far below,
down on the ground with its head so low,
the child of nature cries alone.

Set out to fly so high above,
fallen from freedom and from good grace,
into the smile of a lonely face,
with bottomless black, an empty space.
Lifting the truth from all the lies
on angel wings made for the skies

Little Heart

Put down your arms
little heart
don't be afraid
to ignite a spark
light up the world
show them your worth
Things will get better
little heart
just give it some time
your life will start
with hope and with love
you will find
that your wounds will heal.
Little heart,
be always sincere
and true on your part

Ik Sta Op Straat

Ik sta op straat
geen poot om op te staan.
de wereld lijkt leeg
als mensen alleen nog maar staren
met kille blikken en koude ogen,
versteende bewegingen
en starre houdingen.

Ik sta op straat
en niets lijkt te leven.
Alles is verlost van waarde,
een objectiviteit van de realiteit
staat op en gaat genadeloos tekeer.
Er is geen leven
alleen maar stilte.

Ik sta op straat
en verdwijn in stilte.

Leegte Leeft

Ik ben verliefd op alles
en de leegte waarin het leeft
geen leven zonder dood
en een hart koud als steen
ontdooit langzaam in het vuur
Aangewakkerde levenslust
voor laatste dagen in hartenzeer
en we maken plaats voor momenten
waar alles is gewonnen
leegte in de zon
verwarm ons
geef ons de dagen en nachten
we geven jou de wereld
en ik geef je mijn lach

Little One

There is hope on the horizon,
a bright glowing red dot.
Its warm light surrounds all
and fear and sorrow dissipate
and make way for a feeling of belonging.
You welcome the ocean
as you are leaving the shores of birth,
on waves that carry you gently along.
A petal flowing down a calm river,
your final destination a thousand years ahead.
And then finally, as your roots take hold,
you'll find that you are home.
And when you do,
little one,
remember me.